There's never any certainty, is there? Freedom to do what you will when you want, but the uncertainty of no guidance and not knowing when you'll die is a heavy pay off.
Don't be coy. I've no intention of drawing any ugly truths from you. It's an observation, nothing more -- consider it payment for bearing witness to one of my oldest memories.
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winterfish
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Date: 2019-10-31 06:26 pm (UTC)[ he gives her a side eye. ]
I'll smile like that for the rare few. The cats especially.
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Date: 2019-10-31 08:38 pm (UTC)[she knows damn well not]
-- I jest, of course. But yes, I would suggest you tread carefully this week, if you have any secrets to hide.
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Date: 2019-10-31 08:53 pm (UTC)[ HEH HEH HEH. ]
True. I'm fairly good at resisting things. I would say the same to you -- especially if you've got more secrets that your longing for love.
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Date: 2019-10-31 09:20 pm (UTC)[tone a little crisp, though she sighs soon after and folds her arms]
That person you saw and the one who stands before you are practically different people.
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Date: 2019-10-31 09:53 pm (UTC)Is that person happier?
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Date: 2019-10-31 10:14 pm (UTC)Not particularly.
[shrugging]
Freer in some ways, chained in others. There's always a trade off, wouldn't you say? Even if you achieve what you want.
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Date: 2019-10-31 10:18 pm (UTC)There's never any certainty, is there? Freedom to do what you will when you want, but the uncertainty of no guidance and not knowing when you'll die is a heavy pay off.
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Date: 2019-10-31 10:33 pm (UTC)[It's
not much of a secret, really, and it's why she offers it like it's of no consequence]
You were not wrong in your memory. Freedom comes at a heavy price.
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Date: 2019-10-31 10:39 pm (UTC)[ hm. ]
Yes. It's a bit like a weight, if I'm going to put it in more basic terms.
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Date: 2019-10-31 10:42 pm (UTC)And -- frankly speaking, you spoke as if you were shackled by something.
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Date: 2019-10-31 10:55 pm (UTC)Did I?
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Date: 2019-10-31 10:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-31 11:02 pm (UTC)Do you count a weight you never realised you had as a weight in general?
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Date: 2019-10-31 11:04 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-10-31 11:09 pm (UTC)Hmm. I suppose the next question is whether you choose to keep carrying it.
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Date: 2019-10-31 11:11 pm (UTC)Some are meant to be shed and discarded, elsewise your soul will never find peace.
... Others should never leave you, either as penance, or simply as proof that the past exists.
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Date: 2019-10-31 11:19 pm (UTC)Maybe.
But I suppose that's enough deep soul searching for one day.
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Date: 2019-10-31 11:27 pm (UTC)[Neither fussed nor disappointed, Tamamo places her hands on her hips]
... Not that that memory was very important to me, I'd still prefer you keep it to yourself.
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Date: 2019-11-01 12:04 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-11-01 12:30 am (UTC)[Leaning towards him, amused suddenly]
That you know how to smile like you care for something? Fine, I'll keep my end of the bargain.
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Date: 2019-11-01 11:16 am (UTC)[ what a fucking liar ]